NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME!!!
I don't know WHY my brain operates like this, but I'm always more awake at night and sleepy during the day. My best times to be awake are 5pm-3am Central time. CAN YOU IMAGINE how hard it is to find a job that lets me work at night? Unless it's something like Walmart, REALLY FLIPPING DIFFICULT. Places like Walmart are filled mostly with absolute idiots. Now, I'm not saying that these stores don't have any smart people. But the smart people aren't the ones that would be bothering me all day asking me why the Alka Seltzer isn't in in Wine aisle. I HATE PEOPLE. And yet I've been living in cities for the most recent half of my life. So I had to be around stressing, incompetent people that made too much noise in my normal sleep time and wouldn't let me actually sleep at that time because "that's not how real life works" or some bullcrap people delude themselves into believing.
Another thing - did you know I have found it to be waaaaaaaaaaaaaay safer at night than in the day? Wanna know why? We nocturnal insomniacs generally don't want to talk to anyone -even each other. If you ever, somehow, rarely pass someone on the street, they'll have their headphones in or similar. They won't be yapping. They won't mess with you. They'll mind their own fking business.
The ONLY other time this happens is in a Library. No one ever interrupts you. Wanna know why? Cause their intellectual selves know not to mess with you when you're READING A BOOK. Hell, I've worked in libraries for the past few years specifically because of this. I can handle literally ever single job in a library. My skillset is geared towards it. And using the internet (Windows ftw imo) (and Google) for so many years, I've had to deal with waaay too many computer problems. I can handle computers now - software, anyway - enough to take care of 'em in any Library that has 'em.
But you know what? I'm living in freakin' redneck territory. The RARE # of libraries that exist are already occupied by 120-year-old snots that think every single person in my generation is retarded. Technically, in those areas, they are. But I didn't grow up in redneck territory (okay, I did for a few years but still), I grew up in educated, intellectual Texas cities. Not entirely so but you can't expect everyone to have common sense.
You know what I want? I want a freakin' library or bookstore that is rarely visited and will allow me to work at night. I'm not trying to pull back Halley's comet. I'm not summoning Bahumut. The library can work me to the core - as long as I can work in one at night since I have the experience to do so expertly. It's not magic. It's not even science. It's COMPLETELY BASIC.
Why you so trolling me life?! Y U SO?!
K, thanks for listening.
As each day ends, new demons come to us all.
They are within us, our hearts and our souls.
And as the world ends we can only think:
Why did we accept what we didn't believe?