I'm not so sure this is a completely psychological problem, Yog. There may actually be some chemical imbalance or physiological problem that prevents those parts of the brain which deal with emotions from functioning properly. So is there anything you experience as pleasurable in any way, EM?

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Anhedonia is a problem. As said there are pleasurable things in a strictly physical sense, but nothing emotionally engaging that is pleasurable. Hanging out with friends for instance brought me nothing. It felt like work in a way where I just put in a few hours and then go home. Not like they were bad friends either so that wasn't the issue and I've been friendly with a wide variety of people, often being friends with two groups/people that hate each other, so it's not like I'm just hanging out with people that don't fit me.

It's always possible I establish some deep connection with someone/something that brings out something, but it's rather moot as it doesn't really do anything to help me if I lack it. It would just be something I have to hope to happen across, even if I was being sociable or exploratory as I have already tried in the past, so it's not really an actionable plan.

Animals do anything for you?

I can't say I'm necessarily happy with life. I have this job, and I'm doing it because I have to. I hate working, but it's pretty good money. But the one thing in my life I absolutely love are my dogs.

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Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

Especially that new little guy.

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Snafu's Mercypostle.

hello. I return. those of you that know my tumblr, you should read the post I just made so that you can get my side of what happened.

to everyone else: I've officially been diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder. this is something that I've known I've had for a while but never talked to anyone professional about it. I'm not asking for any advice but I'm politely asking everyone to please not mock me for hating myself because it is not an act. I don't say what I say for sympathy or for compliments. If I say something self-deprecating it just means I'm having a bad day and am not able to hide my self-loathing as well as I usually can. either ignore it or, if you're a friend, message me privately about it.

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I'm still the Queen of Dicks

You weren't the only one who thought you had it.

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

Welcome back :)

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Yay!

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Mythrrinthael - Blood Lord, our local expert in interpretation of The Grim Tales from Down Below!
Fievel - Numerous campaigns and conquests, countless bodies decaying after the abandonment of victorious battlefields. Such is the life of Blood Lord.
Dusk_Imp - Blood Lord is like a celebrity here. Everything he does is pure awesome. ALL HAIL BLOOD LORD
Doctress Who - Why couldn't there be a Blood Lord in every forum? It would make life so much easier.
Snafu's Mercypostle.

It's good to have you back.

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Escape will make me God.

Welcome back!

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Welcome back, Lily.

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My DA
My Soundcloud (WARNING: May contain flat Japanese singing)
Feathers: hiatus'd

Welcome.
And hey, you know we like having you around, eh?

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So now that you officially have a mental disorder are we legally permitted to call you "mental"?

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go nuts

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I'm still the Queen of Dicks

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

Okay.

Now I must go.

Up, up, and awayyyyy...

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I LOVE ALL MY BABIES!

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Tuor: Stuff is our resident, hot mess, alcoholic.
Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

BUT ALL I EVER SEE ON FACEBOOK IS THAT LITTLE GUY AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS SNUGGLE WITH HIM!

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Jeffffey - Blood, you look at the information someone says, look over what really happened, and reply in a way that makes them realize what they were really thinking.
Mythrrinthael - Blood Lord, our local expert in interpretation of The Grim Tales from Down Below!
Fievel - Numerous campaigns and conquests, countless bodies decaying after the abandonment of victorious battlefields. Such is the life of Blood Lord.
Dusk_Imp - Blood Lord is like a celebrity here. Everything he does is pure awesome. ALL HAIL BLOOD LORD
Doctress Who - Why couldn't there be a Blood Lord in every forum? It would make life so much easier.
Snafu's Mercypostle.

LOOK AT THAT FACE, THOUGH! HOW CAN YOU NOT WANNA TAKE PICTURES AND LOVE HIM!

Puppies and kittens cure depression. It's a fact.



Oh, by the way, just a little update. My Dad seems to be kissing my ass, especially now that I have a job. Can't tell if he's expecting rent, or doesn't want me to move out.

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Tuor: Stuff is our resident, hot mess, alcoholic.
Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

Possibly both.

I KNOW!

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Jeffffey - Blood, you look at the information someone says, look over what really happened, and reply in a way that makes them realize what they were really thinking.
Mythrrinthael - Blood Lord, our local expert in interpretation of The Grim Tales from Down Below!
Fievel - Numerous campaigns and conquests, countless bodies decaying after the abandonment of victorious battlefields. Such is the life of Blood Lord.
Dusk_Imp - Blood Lord is like a celebrity here. Everything he does is pure awesome. ALL HAIL BLOOD LORD
Doctress Who - Why couldn't there be a Blood Lord in every forum? It would make life so much easier.
Snafu's Mercypostle.

It is a cute puppeh. I like seeing him on fb.

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Lily's diagnosis fits.

Hope you can overcome it. Despite the problems we've had, I don't wish ill harm on you.

And I apologize for my previous statements. Now that I know the truth, I sincerely regret saying you were trying to garner sympathy. I hope I can be moral support for you one day.

WOOOOOOO IGNORING EVERYONE ELSE'S PROBLEMS BECAUSE I'M A SELF-INVOLVED PRICK WOOOOO

Okay SO the people who follow me on Tumblr may be slightly caught up on this but I'm going to vent my thoughts and feelings here because I don't really have many people who actually care enough to put up with me when I'm like this, so.

I have, as of late, been caught up with feelings for my ex (not the recent one, but the one that's caused problems for me in every relationship i've been in since i was with her). These feelings have been around for about two and a half years and they've died down quite a bit, but I can the occasional... waves of longing, I guess? Lately I've been talking to her about her current relationship and giving her advice (good solid advice, not awful advice that will lead to a break-up, i'm not an awful person). These conversations tend to lead to us talking about what she does for him and how dedicated she is to the relationship and, while i am incredibly happy for her, i am depressed and upset for me? out of all of the people i know, she most deserves to be happy, and i'm glad she is, but it just kind of upsets me that i can't be the one to make her happy, i s'pose. i dunno. i have a lot of conflicted thoughts and feelings going on in my head and i can't really make heads or tails out of any of it.

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

And I've gotten the advice to 'just get over her' hundreds of times from dozens of people and that's honestly easier said than done and at this point i wouldn't really know how to go about it. *shrug*

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

I would say to put some space between the two of you. From what I've seen, you've never really had the time TO "get over" her. I've seen you two talk on Facebook, and such, so you've really never have had the time to heal. I know you don't want to stop talking to her, but I suggest you do that for a short time, find some peace, then pick up the friendship again.

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Tuor: Stuff is our resident, hot mess, alcoholic.
Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.