I don't know exactly what I'm going to suggest to her, but I have mentioned to her that I don't know how she stays with a man like that. I mean, I'm here to protect her now, but I won't be when I'm out of here. But I'm pretty sure she understands that, because she gets upset when I talk to her about moving out. And today she said she felt like she was a prisoner in her own house, so I think she's finally starting to wake up.

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Tuor: Stuff is our resident, hot mess, alcoholic.
Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

Update:

She was just talking to me about leaving him, and getting an apartment with me.

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Tuor: Stuff is our resident, hot mess, alcoholic.
Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

This is a promising development! Yayyy!

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I'm actually really happy, because she's the one who came up to me and was saying she can't deal with this shit anymore. And I told her that we could always leave once I get money coming in, but it can't be too far from my work. And she said she was actually going to talk to me about that, because she's been sitting on that idea for a few days now.

Thank The Lord, she's sane.

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Tuor: Stuff is our resident, hot mess, alcoholic.
Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

5 minutes until I schedule my first informal disciplinary hearing. Yeah.

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Escape will make me God.

What happened?

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

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Escape will make me God.

wow

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To add to my stress, Dorner decided to start a shooting in my hometown today.

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Escape will make me God.

Did you actually do those things or remember the times they supposedly happened?

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

I remember doing most of them, vaguely.

And it's scheduled. Should I dress professionally?

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Escape will make me God.

I'd dress above casual. Was it all to one person?

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

Yep. She left out her allegations of emotional abuse though. So maybe she does care.

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Escape will make me God.

So what did you do to have her report this shit?

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

Tried to kill myself. At least that was the pivot point between us talking, and us not talking.

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Escape will make me God.

You really have a propensity for being a self destructive idiot.

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

Thanks.

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Escape will make me God.

You're welcome.

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

Whoa, whoa. Enough of that

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Sorry.

Crum you really do need to learn how to better handle your triggers, right now you just seems stuck in this cycle of self destructive and then self punishing behavior and that's not healthy for you or anyone around you who might be having similar problems.

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?

In all fairness, my depression is managed... someway or another. More than others, definitely.

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Escape will make me God.

I'm not so sure "managed" is the best word.

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Controlled sounds misleading.

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Escape will make me God.

So does "managed"

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I'd consider controlled to be in a better state than managed, but I have a hard time saying you're managed.

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CAUTION: Would anyone tell me if I was getting stupider?