Not to be mean, or a mood killer, but...
figure out what's going to become of me
Most likely the most common and normal thing. A boring dead-end job, wife, family, divorce, and then either heart attack/cancer or a peaceful death in a nursery home. Then again, taking your location into consideration I should account for the higher odds of being an innocent victim of a gang/drug cartel shooting.
But when you think deeply about it, those odds and outcomes are not that bad. And there is a good chance you may get more lucky in life.
As in become a pro at music/digital art, move to the US, make good money and reach sufficient success in life that you can decide more effectively where you want your life to go.