No need to apologize. Posting in here helped in anyway, then the purpose of this thread as been fulfilled. That is why it was made. I can't offer much in the way of advice right now, I don't know if you want any either, or if you were just looking for an outlet to vent.

That's a very shitty situation, man. I'm sorry.

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I just needed to vent. I just didn't want to keep it in my head.

Thanks for all the advice and kind words guys

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Begone Dirty Whores!

My life is pretty much shit. But not as shit as others. So I'm in a pretty good shituation.

Sorry.

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'If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.'
~Isaac Asimov

I'm stealing the word 'shituation' for every day life.

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

You'd better quote me on that you bloody communist.

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'If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.'
~Isaac Asimov

Um... Huh. Anyone know why Zoot's post counter has gone down to zippo? Zilch? Nada?

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"Cogito, ergo vos es eggo." A.K.A. "I think, therefore you are a waffle."

Hasn't posted outside of Spam.

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

Oh. Thought it was a glitch or something.

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"Cogito, ergo vos es eggo." A.K.A. "I think, therefore you are a waffle."

RAGH.

So I'm Santa in 3 days.

I'm sort of tired of children though, what with the notes left on my doorstep speculating on my mental condition.

It's almost a ritual, though, it went down from every two days to every week, which is nice.

So life sort of sucks, sort of doesn't. Not really doing good on the state of mind front.

I've talked about this before, but I'll bring it up here, so hopefully I get some suggestions. I'm thinking of moving to a different place, just across town, seeing as I don't think I can put up with this.

Thoughts?

Considered suicide. Not considering it anymore. Situation has changed.

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Escape will make me God.

AWESOME.

DaCrum, as I've told others, if you feel like the world is hating on you, well, the best way to fight:

Is to live.

And be happy. That's it.

The point was almost taken. The dreams, the ambition. The reason was taken. Saw no reason. But it's still here, and from the looks of it, is going to stay for a while. So we'll stay living.

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Escape will make me God.

Just don't do it dude.

There's so much to see in the world.

Trust me, it's a beautiful place. Cruel, harsh, and filled with pain, but beautiful nonetheless.

Hrm.

It feels weird, knowing I'M the one typing this. Considering my old point of view.

Didn't think I would post a heavy venting here, but I need somewhere to dump.

I hate my neighborhood. So fucking much. I've become a pariah, with people avoiding me, or kids playing stupid pranks.

I mean, I thought it'd be perfectly fine, coming out of that hospital. But almost EVERY SINGLE GODDAMN PERSON there treats me like I'm as fragile as glass. I'm tired of people thinking I'm crazy as hell, after I made an attempt at getting better.

This thing that made my personal life better, has turned my social life to hell.

I'm so damn tired of it. Fuck. At this point, I'm willing to prove them right and treat everyone like shit, again, just so I could achieve some sense of revenge.

Ugh.

dont nobody mess with insane people who seem violent

I don't give off the impression of being as violent as I was.

I never really did, anyway. They just think I'm a fucking babbling lunatic.

Grr.

Ugh, this sucks.

Why do they all know you went to a mental hospital?

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My nervous breakdown was a bit.

Public.

After I told a friend I thought I could trust, well.

Yeah.

I see.

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I often tell people I'm insane. That way, they see me less so.

I'm glad that people around me are idiots. Makes life much more entertaining.

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'If my doctor told me I had only six minutes to live, I wouldn't brood. I'd type a little faster.'
~Isaac Asimov

Hmm.

Well.

I could make jokes about my history.

Laugh about it. It could work.

Nox inadvertently gave me a solution.

Thanks.

On a lesser note I just learned in high school there was a joke that my mother locked me in the basement which is why I was so pale. Don't care so much though because until senior year I didn't even know the name of the person saying it.

On an important note.
My longest friend is having a baby as we speak and I can't wait to see him be a father.

And the girl that I've basically been in love with since I first met her basically told me to get fucked because I was a selfish prick. Note she was also my best friend.

The long part of the story is that I helped her through her break up earlier in the year then when I broke up with my ex she was there for me...With her new guy. At first I was fine with the guy. Even liked him a bit. Then it started driving me nuts. Or she did. In the summer I'd text her 'What's up?' and three times I've had her say she was naked. We'd go for runs in the woods near the river, walk around town and the mall, I remember she was looking at bathing suits at Zumiez and said she had gotten a skimpier one somewhere else. While fighting myself not to nosebleed I kept my cool.

So when she was insulting me, she was asking why I couldn't just be a friend, and that she knew I liked her.

So I asked if she knew I liked her why lead me on with all the stuff she said?

As to why she was insulting me. Her little sisters friend told her sister I had been talking shit about about their entire family, because I wasn't into her or something. Guess what else happened to her on the same day she was told that. Her Aunt suddenly passed away.

My friends tell me I should forget about her. I just can't though. I just care and worry about this girl so much.

She was in Florida during one of the summer hurricanes and I was just worried about if she was okay or not every day she was there.

Last thing I said to her was that I'm sorry about her Aunt passing away, and I'm sorry she'd believe some kid over me, but I'm not sorry for how I feel about her.


In a crazy fucking way.

I'm really fucking happy she knows, and I finally said how I felt about her.

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"I'M GOING TO SMACK THE LADY OFF OF YOUR DICK!"- BR
"Senel I had forgotten how gorgeous your face is." - Doctress

Well congratulations! I remember the first time I did something like this.

Didn't go nearly as well, and I didn't have my self respect in the end, but I'm glad to hear your endeavors didn't leave you empty handed.

I'm sure once this whole silly thing dies down and you guys talk it over and get some closure a lot of this nonsense will go away.

Good luck.

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"It's such a fine line between clever and stupid."

The Chronometal Wars, a fan-fiction taking place in the PPGD Universe. Catastrophe is the only certainty.

works every time