I am legitimately curious.

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

He's a video to help you feel better. Works better if you dance to it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TbOU2noH56k

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Stufflikehearts - He is a Sith Lord. I love Blood Lord :3
Jeffffey - Blood, you look at the information someone says, look over what really happened, and reply in a way that makes them realize what they were really thinking.
Mythrrinthael - Blood Lord, our local expert in interpretation of The Grim Tales from Down Below!
Fievel - Numerous campaigns and conquests, countless bodies decaying after the abandonment of victorious battlefields. Such is the life of Blood Lord.
Dusk_Imp - Blood Lord is like a celebrity here. Everything he does is pure awesome. ALL HAIL BLOOD LORD
Doctress Who - Why couldn't there be a Blood Lord in every forum? It would make life so much easier.
Snafu's Mercypostle.

Could be depression. Have you felt your relationships/activities change in any way?

May as well clarify.

I was planning on breaking up with her that day, but I wanted to wait until she gave it back. I lent it to her on a rainy day and she had it for for what I thought was about two weeks.

The day I split, she told me she gave it to someone to give to me, because its so hard to tie a jacket around your wait for a couple hours, apparently. Thing is, it was just chillin on an office statue in plain sight for like a week and a half and I just plain didn't notice till then. That's apparently where teachers put stuff the randomly find in the lunchroom.

At some point she just tossed my jacket any old place, lied about where she put it, and didn't care if either party ever saw it again.

And She Cheated On Me

Yeah, she didn't care about me much, did she?

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My DA
My Soundcloud (WARNING: May contain flat Japanese singing)
Feathers: hiatus'd

I'm glad you can see that now.

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@EagleMan
I don't think anything has changed in my activities/behavior, except maybe pulling more all nighters to get disappointing results. I suppose I have less acquaintances in college than I do in high school, but that's probably normal. I have a similar amount of friends as I did before.

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One time when I was high, I thought I was in an ambulance dying. Turns out I was just eating sherbert.
-stufflikehearts-

Maybe you're just exhausted?

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My roommate tried to kill himself tonight. He left the apartment after we had had a talk and I went out to look for him a few minutes later. I wandered around downtown for about twenty minutes, covering 3 block radius, inevitably giving up, but when I got back to the apartment, he was outside and covered in blood and I damn near punched him square in the face. Everything's taken care of and we have friends here taking care of him but I have literally no idea how I'm feeling right now and I'm just incredibly stressed and disoriented.

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

Remember that this isn't your fault.
Try not to blame yourself for this.
In the meantime I hope your friend heals ok.

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My realism workshop Updated April 24, 2013: Not the best

That sucks, War. I'm sorry.

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It does. I've been there too War. You'll be a little out of it for a while but you should come out okay. Try to take comfort in routine if you can.

I've also had some stress-induced tendonitis goin' on in my foot since I moved into my apartment. It had gone away for a couple days, but it came back at work today.

YAY ADULTHOOD.

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Soulchild: u thnk evry thng stupid.
DaCrum: Warbear, why did you suddenly become pretty cool? Stop it.

So...

got the results back for MRI and EEG. I am perfectly fine, aside from the aforementioned migraines.

But on the plus side I got an increased dosage, a large enough amount that the pills explode out of the bottle (or whatever) occasionally when I open it.

I still get headaches and have been filling particularly feverish for the last few days or so. I don't know whats up with that.


So on the other end of the therapeutic spectrum: I have had some issues with application of creativity.

I've been closely watching a handful of artists talk and draw about this or that. And aside from having the occasional RL issue their main problem seems to be lack of inspiration.

What sucks is I have that. OODLES of it, enough theoretical paper to kill a man with blunt head trauma.

I can not for the life of me find a way for me to apply it all in a way that satisfies me. The images, the strange unseeables, the miracles and the truths. I wish to share these with the world in a way that will benefit all who see it.


I seem to be switching on and off between writing and drawing. I am mutually skilled in both but am not really good at either.

Bleh.....

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"Hmm, the more you look into it the more flaws you see, just as it is with everything."

Then go inspire yourself. Too many people try to sit in their little world to inspire themselves. Don't. Go out and find inspiration. Charity work, walking down the street, good cinema and books. Take a trip.

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Escape will make me God.

I fear I am entering the early stages of arthritis.

My family has a long history of it and I am dreading it.

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"I'M GOING TO SMACK THE LADY OFF OF YOUR DICK!"- BR
"Senel I had forgotten how gorgeous your face is." - Doctress

I heard being active can slow that down.

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Stufflikehearts - He is a Sith Lord. I love Blood Lord :3
Jeffffey - Blood, you look at the information someone says, look over what really happened, and reply in a way that makes them realize what they were really thinking.
Mythrrinthael - Blood Lord, our local expert in interpretation of The Grim Tales from Down Below!
Fievel - Numerous campaigns and conquests, countless bodies decaying after the abandonment of victorious battlefields. Such is the life of Blood Lord.
Dusk_Imp - Blood Lord is like a celebrity here. Everything he does is pure awesome. ALL HAIL BLOOD LORD
Doctress Who - Why couldn't there be a Blood Lord in every forum? It would make life so much easier.
Snafu's Mercypostle.

Well I have a home workout routine that I do four times a week that lasts 45 minutes, I lift weights, and run about three times a week. Might be carpel tunnel but I'm not sure.

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"I'M GOING TO SMACK THE LADY OFF OF YOUR DICK!"- BR
"Senel I had forgotten how gorgeous your face is." - Doctress

Learn to type and use your mouse without your arm resting against the desk. It helps to keep your wrists slightly raised. If you can't do that, get a soft gel pad to put on the desk, or move your keyboard back a little or lift your chair a little so you have to stretch or lift your arms up more to type. For the mouse, a soft gel pad is better if you can get used to using it.

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Apparently they're putting in tile into the house, taking out all the carpeting for it... It's going to look ugly, I'll have to climb through my window to get into my room for a couple days, my Uncle's furniture is going to be stored in my room while he's sleeping in the car (he sleeps on the couch...), and it's going to make the house a freakin ice box without the carpet. Thank god that doesn't effect me. It's already freezing in this offshoot of the house. Oh, and since the box for the internet is hooked up in the living room, internet is going to be down until it's all done. Or until my uncle finds another good place in the house to put it.

On top of all that, My grandfather is paying for it all just because his new wife wants it for no good reason, costing him over 10 grand. Thank you you gold digging bitch :D

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"Cogito, ergo vos es eggo." A.K.A. "I think, therefore you are a waffle."

Well, looks like internet's still here. So he found a place to set it up then.

But now on my other side of the family, my uncle's fallen back into his old addict ways and tearing the family apart in the process. Grandma's defending him even after all the times he's screwed her over, taking thousands upon thousands of dollars from her, mooching off her, and making her lie for him. She's already lost one son this year, and she might lose another if he keeps doing what he's doing. No one is prepared to handle her passing... She's just too weak to take all this stress.

*sigh* ... Nothing I can do at all for either of my grandparents and it's eating me up inside.

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"Cogito, ergo vos es eggo." A.K.A. "I think, therefore you are a waffle."

Hey everyone. I got something interesting to talk about.

So. I told myself I wouldn't talk about this, but I guess I need a place if any.

I thought I'd be coming back in a year, but the reason behind my, umm, rapid recovery, is due to me being in a psych hospital for two month.

I have to say, it really helped me. I am now extremely close to my parents, have conquered my fears with people (for the most part), and almost completely dropped alcohol.

Problem, though. Many people that live near me found out. And now I get treated like a complete and total nutcase.

It very much sucks.

So. I came back here.

It's something that I'm ok with sharing, though. I got better because of it, and I'm proud for it.

I'm glad to hear that things have been looking up for you for the most part, Yog. :)

...And, while I'm at it posting here...

@Pwned: I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. I hope things turn out for the best, that your uncle comes to his senses (or at least has the decency to leave his own mother out of this) and that your grandma will be okay.

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My only instinct would be to confront your uncle somehow, but I've never faced such a thing before. I do know that if something happens, you might blame yourself for not doing anything. May as well try something, right?

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One time when I was high, I thought I was in an ambulance dying. Turns out I was just eating sherbert.
-stufflikehearts-

Addiction is a fucker that needs to be kicked as fast as possible.

But listen. Being addicted to anything, you can't just kick it, or say it's wrong. Addicts tend to justify their addictions. They make up reasons for them, use them as crutches. At least, when it's an addiction that they use to escape.

No matter what, though, you can't ever accept what your uncle's doing. Don't outright reject, don't accept either.

What really works is to make him realize what he's doing to the people around him. Show him the effects of his mooching, and the fact that he's damaging his own family. Plan an intervention. And, if worst comes to worst, show him that his actions will only make him alone, in the end.

He has a family to care about. No matter how strong the addiction, he should see that.

He is one to justify it or avoid giving an answer that makes him out to look bad. Last week he just went on a shoplifting spree and stole just a bunch of junk. Heard that's what some people would do, steal a list of things a dealer wants, then give them drugs in exchange.

And I wish I could do something for him. But I don't really know what. I don't know where he lives, how to contact him, everyone but grandma has downright given up on him and doesn't want to deal with him, and he's hurt me just recently as well selling the bike I sold him for drug money. He's been at this for more than 30 years... It just hurts seeing him how everyone else does after knowing him so long. I would like to have an intervention with him, but most likely he's already been to a few already in the span of those years. what hope do I have to help him?

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"Cogito, ergo vos es eggo." A.K.A. "I think, therefore you are a waffle."