Today was weird, I went to turn in some papers for my art history class and after waiting 15 minutes for my teacher to arrive i gave them to him and went on my way. On the elevator i found this girl that studies with me. She is in that picture i posted a few days ago... I don't really talk much to her because she is a bit cold towards me...
Like just me, she can be all happy and butterflies talking to some dude who is actually one of my best friends at college and then i arrive and im like "Hey whats up Santiago" and high five my hommie and she goes all frozen and if this was a cartoon or anime we would get like lighting bolts between us as they often do with people who doesn't get along.
Anyway after a few minutes of awkward silence and the longest elevator ride of my life im about to exit the elevator when suddenly she calls my name and asks if i would like to walk home with her as we used to do at the beginning of the semester (when we weren't so cold to each other) since we live relatively close to each other.
And i really have no reason to tell her no because i have nothing against her its her who acts like a stuck up bitch towards me and i really want to get home so i guess i can handle her for a few minutes. So there we are on the streets walking, she's doing most of the talking while im just nodding and responding with "yes, aha, hmmm, Ok, i see"
suddenly she gets quiet and slows down and clings to my.... arm? wtf i really have no idea of what the hell to do at this point, Like i know i could take advantage of this somehow but have no interest in her at all and i though she disliked me or at the very least didn't care about me.
Before i know it we reach her place that is at a shorter distance from college than mine so i still have a bit of a walk left, she says thank you and gives me a very soft kiss in the cheek... This is not like a casual thank you kiss on the cheek, its like she took her time to make it slow and gentle... (waaaat)and says she'd like to do it again sometime not necessarily from college but maybe grab something to drink or whatever, i give her a monotone answer... "uh..mhmm..ok?" and then gets inside...
I am left there standing wondering what the hell happened? 4-5 months of acting like a stuck up bitch then suddenly this? didn't she have a boyfriend? i am pretty sure she had one... I light up a cigarette... Well, a second cigarette because the first one i lighted i was so absent minded that i placed the opposite end on my lips and lighted the filter on fire... the smell was rather foul and it bummed me a bit because Kreteks are expensive in this fucking city... but this was not enough to take my mind away from what happened.
She is kind of attractive, But i really like someone else and part pf me feels like she is playing me for a fool. Or maybe i am so self centered and hung on my past mistakes and low self esteem (which is actually slowly rising) that i am paranoid? But either way I am not entirely attracted to her but mainly because of the way she acted towards me the past few months... Anyway i was really confused so i decided to get home and play some GW2 have an amazing burger and now i am here telling you about this because i really don't have much to contribute to actual conversation but what the hell i decided to start talking about whatever goes on on my days from now on.
Hiroko: You monster.