DaCrum wrote:I guess I don't think of it as self harm since the intent is not necessarily to cause pain to myself. I mean, this is not the first time I've done this to my knuckles, nor will it be the last. It is a typical occurrence during sparring training, especially when it had been as long as it has been since I had trained.
Will I tape a picture of myself to my punching bag again? Probably no. Will I punch it again? Well, it's called a punching bag for a reason.
Don't punch to the point where you're bleeding, you may not mean to cause harm to yourself, but you are. I saw your knuckles, I think you're an idiot for going that far, but I can't really judge you because I used to self harm. I don't care what other people's views of it are, they can judge or do whatever they want about it, but like I've said to you before "NO ONE knows what you are going through." I can relate on certain things, because I've been in similar situations, and we've talked about this before. But no one can ever know what you're going through, no matter how hard they try to understand. All I can do is try to suggest a better way for you to unleash your stress/anger/etc. Like I said, play games, you can punch your punching bag, but if you are bleeding? Stop. Do something else. Go run on a treadmill instead. Just don't cause harm to yourself.
Hell, even just jump onto Skype and talk to me. Just send me a message on FB, and I'll hop on as long as I'm not busy.