Yowch. What did you do to them?

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Marched. They are such whiny bastards I swear.

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Damn. Do you have health insurance?

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Yeah, but HMOs are a bitch. I would have to go back down to So Cal to get treatment, which I have neither the time for, nor the money.

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Escape will make me God.

Here is the truth.

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I've come to the realization that I’m so used to people abandoning me, that I’m now starting to cut out people from my life, who I shouldn't be. And it’s terrifying. Because I don’t want to do this, but it just happens. And I wanna get myself out of this before I actually do damage to myself.

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RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

You should apologize to your old friends. Try to get back in their good graces and explain the situation seriously to them. Chances are they'll forgive you.

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No one is mad at me, there's no fights or anything, I'm just not speaking to a few of them as much as I used to. I haven't talked to my Gran in like 3 months, I called her today, because I realized I've started to do it to her.

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Tuor: Stuff is our resident, hot mess, alcoholic.
Senel: Stuff is the patron saint of getting shitfaced. You replaced your organs with an engine that runs solely on alcohol.
RIP Lucky. I love you so much.

Still don't have a job. Afraid of not having a home by the end of the month.

Worrying ensues.

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"Cogito, ergo vos es eggo." A.K.A. "I think, therefore you are a waffle."

Call up connections, go to voluntary services. Hell, search up something easy on qualifications to tide you over until you find something better. When one meets failure, they can only hope to focus on what other successes they are able to bring out.

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You might also try negotiating an extension with your landlord / whatever. Unless people are lining up to have it, it would probably sit for a bit collecting dust anyway. You might as well be there keeping it clean and dry, with a promise to pay the back rent when you have a job. This of course relies on you having a decent relationship with the landlord and prospects for a job in the near future.

He's my grandfather. But his wife (my step grandmother (if that's what it's called)) is shooting for any chance to kick me and my uncle to the curb. She's... not the best kind of people. Muscled her way into his will and pretty much got everything signed in her name. So while my grandfather thinks with the only brain that's still working to please her, my dad's side of the family is crumbling.

They don't even know i lost my job for fear of them kicking me out right here and now.

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"Cogito, ergo vos es eggo." A.K.A. "I think, therefore you are a waffle."

My knuckles are bleeding. I taped a picture of myself onto my punching bag and punched it into nothing.

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Escape will make me God.

How's the therapy going?

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Next appointment on Monday.

Some real deep shit is going down within my social circles. I've been outed on how I emotionally and physically abused a friend.

There is no excuse for it. I punched myself in the face last night and dislocated my jaw.

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Escape will make me God.

Self-harm is the dumbest and most ridiculous thing to do. I actively seek out cutters and self-harming people among my acquaintances in order to avoid being around them or befriending them any further.

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Yeah, breaking your jaw won't fix it man.
You gotta look at what you've done and learn from it, or so I'd wager.

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That's not very helpful bro. They're just seeking control and something that is easier to deal with than emotional pian

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Well sorry to sound mean, but I am not capable of fixing broken people. That's for professionals to do. All I've learned is that such people tend to be a whole lot more trouble than others. I don't consider myself 100% mentally healthy, but actively self-destructive people is where I draw the line.

What annoys me about it is that so many people compromise their physical health for the sake of easing the emotional/psychological pain. You only learn to appreciate every last bit of your health once it starts slipping away. I cannot sympathise with people on this because I don't have such urges, but from my perspective, no matter the mental/emotional anguish, self-harming is one of the worst options to take. And I condemn it.

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Condemn it all you like, but self-harm remains an action taken, I am speaking in extremely flexible and loose circumstances here, usually when a person has fallen at their greatest degree, to such a point that nothing else seems to have any benefit or worth in being an alternative anymore. One could definitely tell an individual undergoing self-harm troubles to stop and go get employed, but the damage and whatever emotional pain they've gone through can make it literally almost impossible for them to see any hope in such alternatives. Of course, this does not mean they're useless or too far gone for any repair.

It simply means they need someone patient and understanding enough to help.

srsly organizations and people actually put efforts for people to understand this stuff so they can actually know how to help others deal and seek proper help while they can, hate and annoyance may come as a primary emotional reflex on such matters, the reasons behind them being too varied for anyone to actually explain, but they never really do much in the way of making any beneficial progress for anyone.


@Q.U:

>:(

for the record, im more likely being frustrated than angry here

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QU: If you would like to volunteer, I can always sacrifice your health for my psychological gain. If not, then kindly go fuck a goat.

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As much as it might sound harsh, QU is definitely in the right if he doesn't want to burden himself with other people's issues and there is no problem if he wants to keep his own life free from that.

That's fine, but if so then do try to avoid a place that encourages active communication about issues. That's like walking into a bar and getting pissed alcohol is being served.

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That's fair but he is entitled to his own opinion and can express it so long as he isn't actively damaging any member looking for help here.

He's entitled to it and can express it in any other thread.

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