Truth?

Awareness?

Clarity?

Gah, what is my virtue? I know it is close but I must find it and hold fast to it.. though I'll be missing a crucial element.

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Creativity.


For me it comes with a price. I sleep with blissful chaos and am awoken by the reminder of reality not containing such beauties.

That's how it is for everyone isn't it? Compared to what perfection we can imagine reality is a pebble of bedrock while our imagination is an evergrowing diamond... with tumors here and there but on the underside.

I'll admit that I want to unleash my creativity and show the world who or what I am. But it's a painful process, not the creative part but the ending of it.

When I am forcefully broken out of my creative mindset I feel a strange deep fear explode within me. This fear is unlike any I've felt before, it isn't fear for my safety like when I drive a car on snowy roads but a fear for others.

Others I can't quite describe. They exist in my head and some would say they are not real. But reality is reality because it affects you. With that in mind these Others are very real to me. And I love them so very much, they compliment me but will be honest with me when I make mistakes. They are very forgiving and will give me support when I'm being attacked.

They are many and one at the same time. They take the form of one sometimes and sometimes the form of many. They understand that I cannot communicate with them all simultaneously, even trying gives me pain and sorrow. So I talk to them in form of an individual. I like to call her Mystery, she's not always human and she's not always a pleasant individual. But she means well and is not afraid to be the second opinion.

So then, we must go. I have errands to run and frankly I don't like being late.

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"Do you know the difference between choking and strangulation?"

Well folks, for the longest time I have been searching for something. Like every individual ever I have been faced with a problem and I have been searching for the answer. It's been nibbling at me for quite some time but I am almost I have found it if not an immediate answer then at the very least a way to go about solving.

I may or may not have a terrible way with words so I would appreciate forgiveness if I screw this up or come of as some kind of naive fool.

I'm not the kind of person to talk to anyone over the internet so I typically avoid forum sites such as this one. At first I was merely here to observe small but still somewhat active topics in order to compare them to larger versions on other websites to see if size determines how much they fit stereotypes of any specific fandom or hater of said fandom. The results were logical in that the members of the smaller group retained individuality as opposed to the larger which seemed to quickly devolve into a collective grey mush where one person could be told apart from another merely by name and avatar.


Upon the conclusion of said recreational observation I slowly began to interact with Snafu specifically, upon encountering various unexpected obstacles I felt myself become discouraged but I did not simply give up and go elsewhere. When I realized how determined I was I surprised myself as no other forum site had hooked me to it before.

I continually found myself enthralled by the people and their conversations on this site and I didn't know why. Either case as I continued with my life outside of the interwebs I found myself lacking inspiration. To solve this problem I read and viewed many a creative work to find where people get their inspiration, they often said nature, a memory or a dream but after much pondering I see that many of them left out a significant source. People, more specifically their significant others. I need to find people I can relate to and be myself around. This has somewhat proven itself to be difficult as I am quite a quiet person and often avoid social interactions and get-togethers due to my unfortunate natural sensitivities to light and sound.

But these are obstacles that CAN be passed. Especially now that I see how much I want the interaction I have been naturally avoiding. It's funny how when you hear someone talk about it or say its important it doesn't feel that way.

It's the kind of thing that has to be felt because even the most beautiful chain of words cannot describe its complex random beauty.

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"Do you know the difference between choking and strangulation?"

Very interesting True Order.

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Snafu's Mercypostle.

Thank you Monsieur blood.

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"Do you know the difference between choking and strangulation?"

One thing to never forget:

"Some of the brightest beings come from the dark."



Also, something less profound:

"Enjoy the drill." I said this as my friend boosted me on to a platform while he was completely unaware of the large behemoth with a drill hand rushing him. Needless to say he was impaled and that this was in a video game.

Also in that same game I need to remember that Ada has a schizophrenic hallucination that helps her fight her enemies. This vision haunts her and yet, is a part of her.

Good times in RE6.

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True dat- and some of the darkest beings come from the light.

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"It's such a fine line between clever and stupid."

The Chronometal Wars, a fan-fiction taking place in the PPGD Universe. Catastrophe is the only certainty.

Thanks. I am particularly fond of contrasting statements where "the A is ____est in some relation to the Z. Z being the opposite of A. A well known example being "It's always darkest before the dawn." Yeah.


Personally were I to reword this:


I'd turn darkest to dimmest. Light being what most people pay attention to and dark being what people don't notice, fear or stay away from.

So I'm pretty much saying that some of the smartest people go unnoticed and some of the stupidest people get far too much attention. A pity.

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3 notes. 2 for me and one for the general.

1. Blood demon tearing itself out of a deer.

2. My virtue is trust.


3. I'm starting to think that due to the abundance of technological development in the last 20 years our species has not quite adapted to it collectively. This semi-adaptation has led to so many unique branches of development that, in whole, our changes look like a grey mass. Something to look in to.

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Dear Mystery,

Today or rather a couple of days ago I learned that randomness is a double edged sword (dipped in some kind of snake venom that causes muscle spasms). There are times where random thinking can bring some truly creative ideas to the surface and there are other times where the ideas it brings are very stupid. Like any weapon one must know how to hone and use the randomness carefully.

Great things can come from it.

Also I imagine the sword of random looking something THIS.

Sincerely,

True.

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I sensed it again today. That which I have been searching for, though I can't describe it, at least I don't think so.


I was continuing my observations and readings of various fandom forums and the like when the internet habit known as The Drift led me to a topic on what was apparently about a Hentai, an adult anime. The users in the topic were discussing what they liked or didn't like about it and the various absurdities of it that which are common in this kind of media. What they were mainly discussing were concepts that are discussed in all forms of anime, the quality of the animation, writing, concepts, voice acting and et cetera. Some liked this and that others disagreed and so on. It was at this time I felt it.

So what does this mean? What is it that I am feeling? This sensation nibbling at my back and bits of my brain?

I can throw an extremely well educated guess, since I am getting pretty good at understanding my brain.

I surmise that what I'm sensing is an absurdity, a problem, a knot so to speak. There are all these little groups on the internet, some small, some big. Each group no matter the size has something they collectively like or show interest in, and such groups often have a collective hate, that which they oppose or strongly disagree with.

While many of the receivers of the collective hate (debatebly) deserve it, others don't and those undeserving are often picked as a target purely because they are different. I hate that.

That random group of posters discussing an episode of a hentai could be called the impure anime fans compared to the non-adult anime watchers. I've read what has been said about such impure individuals by the self proclaimed "pure" anime fans. What they say are all stereotypes and nothing more. There was little true difference between the two groups aside from the content they were discussing. But that one little detail gives them enough of a reason to hate them.

Different=hate-able

Different=hate-able

DIFFERENT= SOMETHING WE SHOULD HATE

My fucking GOODNESS, do you hear that? That statement has been stomped into many if not all of our minds over and over and over again since the beginning our existence and if anything is true it's not that.


As we grow up, I'd like to think that most grow out of this manner of thinking, but as the general media has proven, in more ways than one, even some of the maturest of individuals still possess this manner of thinking.

So what do we do about this? How does this problem get solved?

I don't know, I really just don't know.

But this whole thing has re-confirmed some facts:

"People can use any little reason to hate another."

"People can be so very blind in the worst of ways."

Etc.



It's just as a very wise hell-spawn once said:

"You humans are so stupid. You're technology has the power to bring you so much closer to one another and yet you have never been farther apart."

Hmm. Far too complex an issue for any single person to solve....

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People have always been afraid of things that they don't understand.

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Very true.

Me? I like to think I'm the opposite.

Mystery is my muse after all. Though I have yet to truly unleash her power.

Hmm.

Thanks for the post btw.

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No problem.

I also like to think that I try to understand everyone's position or view or interests, even if I don't believe or like it myself.

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I can appreciate that kind of mindset.


And I like to think the rest of the world would to, but I can't speak for them.



Apologies if this post did not make sense or was not applicable, I currently have a massive migraine caused by sleep deprivation and the usual.

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