You're the first person who was ever nice to me in a forum, Drk Psyghost.
But does it require a webpage in order to post my pic's?
But for the time being... i'll post a short story... i'll warn you tho it's sort of long... n n;
(The Torn Heart)
The little girl that never received a father’s love...
To only be selfishly shunned away,
Ignoring the one that wanted only love and protection,
But had to suffer by the man’s sinful acts.
Drinking and smoking, altering the young heart of the little girl,
To scorn and hate the selfish father.
Trying to make him see that he needed to do something to heal her heart,
But sadly ignoring the little one and shove her away to do what he wanted.
Soon in later years, they conceived another child,
The little girl thought... They were replacing her, for she was a failure.
She cried herself to sleep every night the baby whined through,
Telling her that... No one would love a failure... No one would.
Traumatized by a death of a family pet, instead of horror movies...
The little girl had seen death for the first time,
In the place of a dying kitten in her hands by her dogs savage act.
She since then had blamed herself it was her fault the kitten had died.
And fears for when she will die. For her father had too, secretly... Feared it as well.
Through Kindergarten and middle school, the little girl became a teenager,
But still had the suffocating sorrow that no one would ever know that harmed her.
She cried, all of her classmates would laugh at her and tease her,
Bullies beat her up for she cut her hair short like theirs.
Calling her a lesbian and many other horrid names,
She wanted to get out of this life... So badly.
So... She would read, and read, and sometimes draw to escape this hectic world,
And be in peace, but she knew, something was missing.
And when she became thirteen, the worst came,
Her father, cheated on her mother with another woman.
She was sickened, and the hatred bubbled up to loathing of her father,
Crying herself to sleep once again to escape the horrible feelings within her heart.
Fearing... That if she ever fell in love with someone, would they do the same?
She was afraid, fearing it so much... Avoiding those she had crushes on,
For they always crushed her heart to pieces and made her bleed, by tears within her eyes.
Scorning all couples that were mushy with each other within the corridors of her new schools,
Wishing that they would just grow up and stop this charade, for they would suffer like everyone else.
Now, the teenager is now becoming a new fledgling that will go out into the world,
Still fearing its many terrible events that may occur to her, to tear her heart apart for one last time.
When that time comes... She’ll die of a broken heart. For her father... Was gone forever.
By the use of Meth, she loathed drugs and alcohol... Wanting it to be eradicated from the world.
But... She wonders, the one that loves her... Is real?
Last edited by Alfina
on Tue Jun 13, 2006 7:20 pm, edited 1 time in total.