Yog wrote:My uncle is dying and I can't fucking feel.
Were you close to him? Or is he just "family"?
I am very close to him. My uncle was one of my closest family members. He was one of the few that loved me unconditionally even when my parents kicked me out of the family.
Right now he's comatose, though. He was admitted into the hospital from a heart attack and then they found some bad pneumonia in his lungs. The problem is that he's old. He's more like my grandfather's brother, than my uncle. He's probably going to die
I'm sorry for that, by the way. I was momentarily flooded with emotion and anger aimed at my inability to feel sad. I've shut a lot of that down, and I'm fine now. I just felt on the edge of despair. It's weird. First a cat, then a friend, then my mom, now my uncle.
I feel like a robot, right now. I imagine that it's the only practical way to function, but still. This state is so similar to how I was when I was a hermit that it confuses me.