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Exodis wrote:I never thought I'd post my problems here in the Therapy Thread, but... here I am.
So recently I've started noticing that I've been mainly secluding myself from the world. Meaning that I haven't been interacting a lot with others. I mean, yeah I got to school, have my share of fun there, and then that's it. I've become the socially awkward, isolated person I didn't want to become. I hate it. Just me, doing nothing while I see others having a grand ol' time, not realizing that someone's in their house doing nothing for their life. It's just a pain in the ass to always push myself to do something rather than just playing video games all fucking day. This whole bloody spring break I've done nothing. Absolutely fucking nothing. I just see these people, some that I know in school, having a great time... care free... while I'm here... just secluded. Is this from my goddamn autism? I don't know. In the end, what I'm asking is... well, what can I do? I know the answer's gonna be "Go out there and live!" but it's harder for me to do. I mean, I can go out there... but then what's next? Maybe I'm just being paranoid... maybe. God my life's a huge mess...
Exodis wrote:It's just whenever I see others happy and full of life it just makes mines look pitiful as I do nothing and sulk. I just want my life to be more... "lively", if you catch my drift. Not a party life, but a life where I can not only care about my studies but at the same time have fun with others (like friends). But my problem is that I'm socially akward, as in I have trouble trying to go out and hang out with friends. It just pains me to see my life go by, pissing it all away because of seclusion...
EagleMan wrote:Well if it's any consolation, consider that you're only seeing people from a very small part of their life. Those people you're thinking that of, they could be staring right back at you thinking the same of you, envying how you look so happy and full of life. If this really pains you so, what stops you from going out? Do you still have friends to do it with? How about acquaintances? Make them into friends. Or is it anxiety that stops you from going out? Then there's ways to help that. It is a difficult place to get out of though, but you should at least make a token effort. If you're scared of rejection, consider that it can't get much worse than where you're at now. So what if they say no, or if they're busy? Forget them. You tried at least. That's better than not trying. And if they say yes, all the better. If they actually reject you, then you know who isn't worth your time and you've saved yourself a lot of brainpower obsessing over them.
Yog wrote:God damn it, Lily, I'm so sorry.
You should separate from everything and everyone to do with the incident.
And take up your issue with the administration office. That's fucking bullshit.